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there is nothing to be gained from cutting into this mortal frame
but at least I can safely say that my blood was useless and spilled all over the place
my sex-obsessed peers are out having fun
while i stay here and try to look for one reason why she hasn't left me yet
she's never going to call me back again
so fuck it, let's just go to that place downtown
where the lights drip into the drinks and the sound of blood hitting the ground rings out so resoundingly loud due to the stomping feet of the crowd
and I don't want to hear the shadow people calling me out
and she'll be okay, she has other friends to hang out with
to take her mind off of me
i'm sounding like a petty fuck
and i don't want a pity fuck to get my mind off things
less talking, more drowning
and the bouncer looks at me with vacant eyes:
“heaven isn’t for trannies with cut-up thighs."
"yeah, so then i basically went back home out of embarrassment. i could smell the distinct scent of weed from my neighbor's house. the neighbors were high again, and i knew it would be a matter of time before the screaming started. as soon as i got into my room, i checked my phone. zero missed calls or texts. she was most likely asleep, or hanging out with someone else. and i don't know, there was this feeling i felt. it was like i was being crushed by a vise, but at the same time, this is what i made. this is the bed i made, and now i have to sit there and look. just sit back, and watch as the one person that i wanted to be with for the rest of my life slowly gets more and more out of reach until I'm just another number on their phone that they don't call anymore. i can't really say I'm surprised, but i can't say i'm not hurt either. i think i'm going to go for a quick swim in the marina."
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sarah drowned
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you can forget me soon.
you can lose me too.
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you can forget me soon.
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Neurotics California
dead monument
2019 - 2021
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