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bossa nowheres

by Neurotics

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1.
notebook song (that i wrote a long time ago) 04:04
lyrics
spiders in your eyes and i will go away for a long time going to sleep forever sounds so funny, i laugh about it all the time i don't want to leave my room, it's safe and a good place to die all my friends are hanging out and i'm here, wrapping things up as best as i can but it's not that hard now leaving my room i don't want to
2.
stop having sex, start cutting wrists 01:05
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yr change, strewn out across the doorway if we were to have kids, do you think they'd be just like me? do you think they'll be depressed and a mess mentally will we find them hanging from their ceiling? will they keep glass under their bed and burn themselves every week? will they cry in their beds and think: "why won't someone just call me?"
3.
dead skin girl 05:57
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go fuck yourself with a serrated metal bar quit it with the "you're gonna go far, kid, you just have to give up on your happiness" bullshit i don't want to live due of apathy or just becoming more numb to the shit i see but because i can see a reason to, which i can't right now don't wanna live, don't wanna pass on my misery to anyone else walk down the street, walk down the street, mean it this time sideways is fun but what if you meant it this time? hitting styro, what do you know about living happy you haven't left the house in days have you even noticed that i haven't showered in days? or are you just blissfully unaware like her? if so, please stop pretending once we're in a hospital room give me one good reason for the first time, i felt safe in your arms we always had to share and for the first time, i thought about what would have happened if i didn't enter that goddamn bathroom that day
4.
haunting et lumeria 02:10
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do i still have blood on my shoulder? when you grow up, when you get older do you think you'll think of me as more than a burning memory? lumeria will you burn those mixtapes and CDs because they always seem to remind you of me and you and all our conversations that would be best kept in your lacuna sign-up sheet? lumeria i won't haunt you but i want to watch over you but not in the creepy way like that other person wanted to i just wanna see you smile even while stuck i'm stuck in hell
5.
"she's all that" is an okay movie 05:23
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i never realized how much i like leaving home until i started feeling sick every time me and my mom were alone and every joke was met with a fake laugh that grated on my ears it's cold in my room where i make my little pop songs and i don't want to worry my friends even though they'd say "it's too late for that" but proceed to change the subject because anything's better than talking about me wide-eyed i can see the roof from here closed-mouthed one bad move and i'm falling down
6.
we got so bored that we started to scream, but then we were yelled at by the neighbors, so then you left and i started to think that you never really meant it when you said you wanted to stay with me forever but that's okay because i never had a longterm plan for my body 04:45
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in our hypothetical separate beds: "let's not talk about this tonight. it's cold and it's raining and I've already turned off the light. so keep your mouth shut and cry if you must. but nobody's there when you need them, and there's a reason for that." mother in waiting room: "your dad is riddled with cancer. say your goodbyes." the past morgan, in a coma: "don't stop writing about me." in those same separate beds: "you misunderstand how little i love you, but you only cry when i say i do." a bitter speaker, and an even worse thinker: i was never your friend i was never your lover you never needed me you only needed me when you were high out of your mind or constantly crying all the time. why did you even call me (if you were just going to ignore everything i say all the time?) was it to feel better about yourself and your problems? constantly ignored everything i said. (insult me again. let your mask slip off your face and be the venomous snake you love being when you're bored.) and i guess i'll see you next week again.

about

this is an album compiled of "acoustic" tracks that were recorded spontaneously.

i've been thinking about some times when i was genuinely happy. the cover is one of those times.

thanks to my antidepressants. if you worked, then i wouldn't have released all i did under this project.

thanks to C, W, and A. you know who you are, and you know how much you guys mean to me always.

thanks to nina and lacerda. you fucked me up emotionally and mentally, but you were good listeners from the corner of every dark room i was in.

thanks to you. it hasn't been easy, yes. but whoever you are, i have hope for you. if i can't have any in myself, then i'll put it into you.

(the lyrics written and music recorded were compiled from 2020 - 2021)

thank you for listening.

goodnight and goodbye.

credits

released June 16, 2022

and when she tosses and turns in bed
you'll no longer be racing in her head
you're just a ghost now
and she's not a fan of hauntings.

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